fin

All praises to The Almighty, I am so much better today. Disappointment lingers, but life goes on. You know, sometimes, you are just overwhelmed with sheer disappointment when someone you once loved, maybe still do, breaks a promise. Yes, promises are ALWAYS broken but it hurts more when the issue in hand is EXTREMELY personal. You feel angry, betrayed & you feel the need to allow this person to KNOW that you are feeling this way.

First and foremost, I HOPE no such things will happen again. InsyaAllah. I`ve decided to let the issue rest because you just can`t get 'sorry' out of certain people for whatever reasons that they have. One thing for sure is that I know I have freed myself. I`ve managed to get across what I felt and wanted to say pertaining this issue which surfaced out of the blue. & so with that, I am able to let go & free myself. I`ve said my peace & the rest is, I guess, better left that way. Apology given or not, I don`t think that matters SO MUCH to me anymore. Everyone has a conscience and sometimes you can`t help but feel guilty for not acknowledging your mistake or apologizing to someone you`ve wronged. People have reasons for not apologizing, maybe someday they will, or maybe they won`t. I feel at ease now because I know this comes with closure & acceptance on my part. & yes, the damn pieces don`t FIT anymore. But if someone asks me the same, old question, I`d answer it all the same.
I smiled at everything today. From the cute little boy with dimples in the bus to the couple I met on my way to Parkway Parade. & I did one little thing which I`ve not been doing for some time - I assured myself that tomorrow will be better & that I am stronger than this, I know I am :)

Que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be.
& it is in You that I seek solace & gather strength in my darkest days. & above all, I know You are with me.

enough

I think that`s they way it is. When I`m coping on really fine, there`s always something that will upset my entire balance all over again. It`s like a chapter of my life I`ve been trying to close but keeps re-opening itself.

You know, one day, I hope you realise that you`ve made a mistake & actually acknowledge the fact that you`ve betrayed me. You know you shouldn`t have done that. You know I trusted you. You knew everything that you needed to know, Nazir. But you didn`t know that one day, I would know about it. You know that right now, I am powerless to make people stop talking because I can`t control what comes out of their mouths. Everything`s been done & said. What you did. . . was that a mistake? I don`t know & I`ll never know & the thing is, I don`t know if there is a need for me to know if it was a mistake on your part or not. I gave you a chance to give me an explanation but I received none. That`s just very disappointing, really. I am not the right person to talk about responsibilities, but whatever happened to being responsible for your own actions?

Slowly I discover things that break my heart, but more often than not, I keep them to myself because I can`t do anything about all these. I am extremely weary of this shit already. I`ve reached my limits. Push me any further & I`ll probably end up being the next Britney.

ALL sorts of contact, cut. You`ve done it yourself. I can only take so much. Enough is enough. Maybe some day, you`ll realise that I`ve loved you with all I that I have in me & that I would just drop everything just for you if you make your way back now. Everyone makes mistakes, we all know that, but to acknowledge that mistake takes lots of courage & I knew you as the person who had lots of that. Or so I thought. Let`s face the brutal facts now, we`re not returning, too much damage`s been done & that`s all there is to it.

Yeah, we`ve all had times when sorry really does seem to be the hardest word, & you`re probably experiencing it now. I don`t know. All I know is you probably had your own reasons for doing that. & I know I yearn for a better tomorrow & for this chapter of my life to close. For real. You know you were special.

crap

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, how can i NOT go insane??!! You tell me.

bite my tongue

"the end is only when you want it to be."

I told you I have such itchy fingers. Sometimes I`m amazed where my fingers can lead me to. Anywaaaaay, I logged in myflashbox. It`s not even on my blog anymore & I don`t know why I even logged in. Read the old tags then got all emo nemo. Wth. I lived for your tags sent on 31 July 2007 & 1 August 2007.

I miss you laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa & I know better not to say it so I`m just gonna shut up & live with it. Crap. How annoying is this?

Okaye & I`m supposed to be in school but I`m not? No. Okaye & I`m supposed to be in school but I`m not.

i think my dam`s gonna burst soon

Sometimes, an uncontrollable feeling of sadness grips us, he said. We recognize that the magic moment of day has passed and that we`ve done nothing about it. Life begins to conceal its magic and its art.

We have to listen to the child we once were, the child who still exists inside us. That child understands magic moments. We can stifle its cries, but we cannot silence its voice.

The child we once were is still there. Blessed are the children, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

If we are not reborn - if we cannot learn to look at life with the innocence and the enthusiasm of childhood - it makes no sense to go on living.

There are many ways to commit suicide. Those who try to kill the body violate God's law. Those who try to kill the soul also violate God's law, even though their crime is less visible to others.

We have to pay attention to what the child in our heart tells us. We should not be embarassed by this child. We must not allow this child to be scared because the child is alone and is almost never heard.

We must allow the child to take the reins of our lives. The child knows that each day is different from every other day. We have to allow it to feel loved again. We must please this child - even if this means that we act in ways we are not used to, in ways that may seem foolish to others.

Remember that human wisdom is madness in the eyes of God. But if we listen to the child who lives in our soul, our eyes will grow bright. If we do not lose contact with that child, we will not lose contact with life.

- an excerpt from By the River Piedra I Sat Down & Wept by Paulo Coelho

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fair and square says:

fit.....
- spunk(@) says:
yea?
fair and square says:
i love you very much.

everything will be alright k.
- spunk(@) says:

okaaaayeeee u love me & everything`s gonna be alright.
mmm, u are my courage, baaaabyyyyy HAHAHAHA (:
fair and square says:
youll always be our baby
- spunk(@) says:

2nd march..u promisssseeeeddd meeeeee.
fair and square says:

i did? ;)
- spunk(@) says:
kill me alreadyyyyyy..you ass. & ur bf sucksSssxxxZZzzzzzz HAHAHA
fair and square says:

he missesxxxzszzxxz you
- spunk(@) says:
gaaaah...everyone does!!! HAHAHA -rolls eyes
fair and square says:
witch
- spunk(@) says:
woof (:

OKAYE I MISS MY FAVOURITE COUPLE & HURRY MEET ME ALREADY.

yes i`m still alive. now read this.

"Don't be frightened, Pilar. Don't just fall into playing a role."

I didn`t want my problem with the old man to become a problem with him, so I tried to stay calm. "I don`t know what you mean by 'playing a role'."

"Some people always have to be doing battle with someone, sometimes even with themselves, battling their own lives. So they begin to create a kind of play in their head, and they write the script based on their frustrations."

"I know a lot of people like that. I know just what you mean."

"But the worst part is that they cannot present the play themselves,"he continued."So they begin to invite other actors to join in.

"That`s what that fellow outside was doing. He wanted revenge for something & he chose us to play a part. If we had accepted his restrictions, we`d be regretting it now. We would have been defeated. We would have agreed to participate in his miserable life and in his frustrations.

"The man`s agression was easy to see, so it was easy for us to refuse the role he wanted us to play. But other people also 'invite' us to behave like victims, when they complain about the unfairness of life, for example, and ask us to agree, to offer advice, to participate."

He looked into my eyes. "Be careful. When you join in that game, you always wind up losing."

He was right. But I still wasn`t happy about being inside the chapel. "OK, but I`ve already said my prayer. I`ve done what I wanted to do. Let`s go."

- excerpt from By the River Piedra I Sat Down & Wept

by Paulo Coelho

you want a piece of me

There are like about 5 people lingering but I can`t even be bothered to bat an eyelid. In the first place, I`ve never LOOKED for these sort of things. For some odd reason, Cupid just likes me way too much. Anyway, there are some individuals whom I`ve taken an interest in but the effect sort of wears off after a while coz they aren`t exactly like the person who came up with 'loml togicel'. Go figure. So it`s like a passing thing which I have zilch intentions of pursuing. It`s like 'there`s no beginning, there`ll be no end' kinda thing. I pretty much like where & how I am NOW. & all is well with the world. That`s just about it. I`m looking forward to tonight, tomorrow and the day after. We`ve got Friday well-planned ;)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS, EVERYONE (:

just like we do

Our conversation consisted of Hello & Goodbye. & in between, there were deafening moments which made me wanna hang up. The 'I MISS YOU's & 'HOW ARE YOU DOING?'s were unsaid. We were contented with keeping silent. & then suddenly, I heard sobs on the other line - something I seldom hear from her. There`s a reason why she`s my COURAGE. & the sobs simply broke my heart into pieces again for God knows how many times already. The kind of heartbreak which can`t make tears stream down your face. More like the kind that could make you stop breathing any moment.

For you, I`ll be strong. Here`s to strength, you beautiful girl.

of a mellow saturday

Hello yello. I am home on a Saturday, completing the much dreaded MHR assingment. Geez. A 6000-word limit report. HELLLLOOOOOO. & to think I have to meet my group members in town tomorrow just to complete it. I am so glad that we are almost done with Marketing. I can`t wait for this semester to end, really. Guys, we are halfway there, thank God it`s sem 3.5 already. So to all the wonderful people of 19/3C, we are gonna be just fine coz madness will be over come Tuesday.

It`s February 2008 & that means I`m just weeks away from the much anticipated Perth trip. Hurrah! :D

Yesterday brought me joy. I look forward to a new week filled with love & laughter. & to everyone I`m missing currently, you are in my prayers.

Despite a crazy week, I managed to finish reading 2 well-written books. HAHA.

The mercy of Allah is an ocean. Our sins are a lump of clay clenched between the beak of a pigeon. The pigeon is perched on the branch of a tree at the edge of that ocean. It only has to open its beak.
- an excerpt from Minaret by Leila Aboulela

Anyway, I`m still thinking of how I can squeeze in some time for a 10-wk course on Islamic Astrology at Al-Falah Mosque. Mmmm. I`ve no idea how to pave time for this BUT I really, really, really, really wanna attend it. Okaye, we`ll see. It`s about shifting priorities again. & oh, if anyone knows about Islamic Astrology in other mosques, drop me an e-mail okaye! (:

Okie dokie, back to my report now. Gambate! :D

TGIF

Tonight, we are gonna laugh, dine, bond & spread all the love in the world by the ...umm... riverfront? LOL. Table for 10 yay i hope everyone will have fun. Thank God for Zac & his car. But I`ve this uncanny feeling that the 4 of us in the car are not gonna be able to find the place & we`ll all end up bickering. & there`ll be lots of 'TURN RIGHT, EH NO TURN LEFT. RIGHT RIGHT. EH LEFT!' & then Bean would just say, "SHUT UP! LET ME CALL MY MUMMY." (okaye, inside joke) HAHAHAHAHAHA.

OKAYE I SOOOO NEED TO RUMMAGE MY CLOSET NOW & GET READY BY 1830!

HAVE A GLORIOUS WEEKEND, EVERYONE! & may February be a better month for all (:





p.s Raqiah dear, i wish you could tag along tonight.





[edit] YOU ARE CRAZY.
& btw, what`s wrong with everyone eh? Call ME, then I couldn`t pick up. Then I called & then THEY didn`t pick up. & then THEY called & I didn`t pick up. & then I called & they didn`t pick up. EH FUN AH PLAY THIS GAME!!!! You guys must try it out you know -.-
&&&&& IT`S 1811 & I STILL DON`T KNOW WHAT TO WEARRRRRRRRRR.[/edit]

& all is right with the world

THANK YOU.

understand this

Far away, some time ago. Glowing dim like an ember. All the things it used to know & yearns to remember.

freefall, freefall, freefall, freefaaaaaaaaall.

why does it always rain on me?

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Fitriyanna, you run away and hide from EVERYTHING that has ever caused a tear to trickle down your cheeks. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back to you. & you DON`T KNOW WHAT TO DO. This is an ENDLESS battle you have with yourself, it seems you`re ALWAYS so happy & when you are, it`s genuine YET you know you`re ALWAYS so sad. This is going to take more than one night. You`ve gotten into something you CANNOT deal with. Fitriyanna, your world is crumbling in YOUR very hands. & you look at yourself in the mirror & with each passing day, you realise how forlorn your eyes look - they lack life, they lack soul. You no longer look into people`s eyes with confidence because you are afraid they`ll see how lifeless your eyes have become. 'Whatever happened to that free-spirited girl? Her eyes are barren of life now.' You know you fall deeper into the doldrums slowly & die a little more with each passing day. You are not you anymore & you know it very well.

my happiness

2007 - Of puffy eyes & morning lectures.

clockwise

Kai - Ironically, the only person who can say 'Siak ah' a gazillion times & I wouldn`t be pissed off (: & talking to her makes me feel like I`m in Malaysia, idk why. HAHAHA. &&&&& she can forge my signature like REALLY well. Haha. & my favourite sentence to her? 'KAI, BILA NAK KAHWIN?' hahaha.

Raq - A coincidence that there`s a Raqie in the class. Like seriously, what are the odds of having 2 uniquely-named people in the same class? Like Raqie & Raqiah. Anyway, the person who sleeps with me in bus 5 like ALL THE TIME (: & the one who always, always knows if I`m REALLY okaye or not even if I`ve been laughing away. CRANQIAH, you are loveeeeeee (:

Sann - If there was an award for being the most vulgar, it`d go to her. The cutest Chinese girl friend I have so far & the one who`s ex bf shares the same bday w me & the one whose lovelife is as fucked up as mine, but hers is getting waaaaaay better now. Sann, please spread some LOVE to me, tyvm (: & probably the only person who can say 'FUCK U' & 'Chee Bye' to me & I wouldn`t be pissed. Only exception is her 'REALLY MEH'. Fucking annoying, I tell you (: & now she looks sooo good with Nic (:

Nuraini - The climbing chic who`ll bring me to SP to climb soon, yay! & the one who has a nice bedroom w very nice bedsheets haha (: & the one who`s ALWAYS rushing for food with Kai HAHA (:

Me - NO introduction needed. Okaye la I`m actually the baby of us all. HAHA.

Jac - The craziest ex-butch(hahaha) with cool outfits & shoes & our perception on certain issues are alike. I like talking to her. & probably one of the most straightforward people in my life (: & the one who is my 'mummy' in school because I`ve got this BAD BAD BAD habit of chewing AND biting off the edges of the styrofoam cups HAHAHA. 'FITRIYANNA, GIVE ME THE CUP!'


Muchos Gracias, you 5 for madness, forging signatures 'pls sign for me. i`m not coming for class', company, smoke breaks at the side though I keep complaining I`d die of passive smoking & thanks for LOVE.Haha.

We soooo rock 19C and here`s to more madness like this.
25 Jan 2008


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I keep laughing each time I see this picture because moments before this, all of us almost fell off the bench because all of us were so 'smart'. It couldn`t support our weight & it sort of 'see-sawed' when..get this...when I sat on it. Apparently, I was the last one to be seated. So yes, go figure. HAHAHA. But it was pure madness & we nearly died of laughter. & as u can see, we spilt tea on the table & onto someone`s bag, I dunno whose. LOL.

All of us were still recovering from shock when this was snapped & I suffered from giggling fits. So that explains why I`m umm...like that. HAHAHA. & I think we all need to get back to our Physics & re-learn Newton`s Third Law of Equilibrium or something. HAHAHAHA.

THIS PICTURE IS LOVEEEEEE & YOU GUYS MAKE SCHOOL SOOOOOO MUCH MORE BEARABLE, THANK GOD FOR MADNESS (: HERE`S TO MORE INSANITY & LOVE.

& thank you for insane late night 'I LOVE YOU' SMSes. Awwww, we are such loving people (:

&&&& if there`s no tomorrow, & all we have is here and now, I`m happy just to have you, you`re all the love I need somehow (: I love you 5. With all of my heart (:

& today, I met my favourite flower, Siti Dahliah & we got matching bags! :D

a random shoutout to Iylia... I miss you, you GA freak. You are my strength & may God bless you (:

&&&&&& to my favourite Sergeant, in times of madness & confusion, through the trials & tribulations of my heart for the past one year... You are my joy. Because of you, I now look forward to my Saturdays because I know I`ll be safe & we`ll be okaye even if there`s so much madness & shit to endure. Please shift from Bt Panjang to Simei. You`re too far from me. But it`s okaye, it`s okaye I guess. You are my joy & that`s all that matters (:

Syukran, God, for guidance & for blessing me with love from all these people in my life. Maktub (:

i lose the track that loses me

"My heart is a traitor," the boy said to the alchemist, when they had paused to rest the horses. "It doesn't want me to go on."

"That makes sense," the alchemist answered. "Naturally it's afraid that, in pursuing your dream, you might lose everything you've won."

"Well, then, why should I listen to my heart?"

"Because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. Even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to what you're thinking about life and the world."

"You mean I should listen, even if it's treasonous?"

"Treason is a blow that comes unexpectedly. If you know your heart well, it will never be able to do that to you. Because you'll know its dreams and wishes, and you will know how to deal with them.

You will never be able to escape from your heart. So it's better to listen to what it has to say. That way, you'll never have to fear an unanticipated blow."

The boy continued to listen to his heart as they crossed the desert. He came to understand its dodges and tricks, and to accept it as it was. He lost his fear, and forgot about his need to go back to the oasis, because, one afternoon, his heart told him that it was happy. "Even though I complain sometimes," it said, " it's because I'm the heart of a person, and people's hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don't deserve them, or that they'll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren't, or of treasures that might have been good but weren't, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because when these things happen, we suffer terribly."

"My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer," the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at the moonless sky.

"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity."

"Every second of the search is an encounter with God," the boy told his heart. "When I have been truly searching for my treasure, every day has been luminous, because I've known that every hour was a part of the dream that I would find it. When I have been truly searching for my treasure, I've discovered things along the way that I have never would have seen had I not had the courage to try things that seemed impossible for a shepherd to achieve."

So his heart was quiet for an entire afternoon. That night, the boy slept deeply, and, when he awoke, his heart began to tell him things that came form the Soul of the World. It said that all people who are happy have God within them. And that happiness could be found in a grain of sand from the desert, as the alchemist had said. Because a grain of sand is a moment of creation, and the universe has taken millions of years to create it.

- The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho



Yes, I FINALLY got my hands on that book(& no, it`s not a love story, please) & I completed reading it in class just now HAHA. Oh btw, I started reading it last night at 10pm. I am totally in love with Paulo Coelho. Will go book-hunting again tomorrow. These days, I`ve been yearning to go to my secret place. You know, just lie down & read. I can do that for hours.

For some reason, this current background song makes me wanna... float. & I was gazing at the sky five nights ago, saw the moon & then it dawned on me that the most breathtaking moon I`ve ever seen was on 4th May 2007. The incidences that occured on that day were coincidentally very meaningful as well. So many moons I`ve seen after that day, but none compared to that.

"Is that the moon or the sun?" "It`s the moon, Fit." "But it`s so big. I`ve never seen it that big. Are you sure that's the moon?" "It's 10pm, Fit. & it's the moon, baby." "But it`s so big" "It`s special and beautiful."
"I want to sit on the table. No, maybe I want to sit next to you."
"I think I love you, you know." "You think so?" "No, I don`t. I know I do." "You know I've always loved you."

Makes me smile, then cry. With him, I lived for moments like that. Simple moments that took my breath away. Moments I can`t imagine myself having with anyone else.

Fit, I see you run and run and run your life away. And I don`t know what you are running away from because you keep returning to the starting point. You are running in circles. If you want to run, you run straight ahead, up the hill, zigzag, whatever, just not in circles. That`s what you are doing - running in circles. I don`t get you at all.

ai fink aym cray zee

I think I miss that touch so much that I crash into people just to feel it again. AND i do say sorry after that OK. I`m polite & very considerate, you know. HAHA.

But you know happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light.
- J.K. Rowling, "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban"


Okaye time to on the lampu. Dah lama tak on. Bye semua! HAHA (:

of faith & hope

So take these words
And sing out loud
Coz everyone's forgiven now
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that we might find better days


I like to be realistic, but I always stay open for a miracle.


So go on & spread the love. Take a chance.
Text that one person you`ve been missing, or smile at a stranger in the bus, give your mum a warm hug, massage your dad`s weary shoulders, recite a prayer for someone close who`s passed away for years, or write a note to your lover, or call an old friend just to say Hello, or simply count your blessings & be thankful for God`s little gifts or apologize to someone you`ve always wanted to say sorry to.


Sometimes your one little act can put a smile on someone`s face. So go on, stop whatever it is you`re doing & perform a deed.
We are all afraid of the future, petrified of what`s to come. Sometimes we have it going good & we think it`ll last but we`ll never know, we`ll never know.
Everyone hopes for a better tomorrow, a better future.
& in this fragile world, we could all do with a little more love.

Have a good night, everyone & God bless(:

& as the story goes

OMG. I SOOOO HAVE TO TELL THE WORLD THAT I`M MEETING THE DROP DEAD GORGEOUS BABE , MISS NAZIA MATTAR, AFTER SCHOOL TOMORROW FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME & I`M SOOOOOO EXCITED, PLEASE!

:D

HAHA. I`m having butterflies in my tummy. LOL. It`s like I`m having my first date or something. HAHA (: See you tomorrow, sunshine!

egg-citing day

i`m tapping because the guy is only coming down on Tue to check the lines. i feel like smashing the modem, I tell you. -does a guitar smash. if i get caught for tapping, please visit me in jail. ha ha.

&&& zul don`t do THAT to me ever again. not at 4.31 am when i got home only at 0300 and it`s only 1.5 hrs since I shut my eyes. NEVER EVER. though we are like catdog(me being cat, of course), understand that I do love you, my friend, with all my tainted heart for the past 5 years though I think you are the most annoying creature in my life. this love/hate relationship i have with you will probably carry on until we are both old & grey & rotting. how. very. touching. -sobs

&&&&&& CNY is coming which means the annual visit to Andrew`s house. His parents totally adore me because I was the best 'girlfriend' their son could ever have (these aren`t my words, really) & they always always get excited when we bump into each other at NTUC. & they probably think it`d be really nice to have cute little sepet grandchildren. okaye okaye okaye i`m kidding. we used to be neighbours back at 108 so that`s how we became childhood 'sweethearts' & yeah okaye we had it good when we were 17. this is pointless, really, I need to shop for new red clothes. "Fit, just wear the red packet." Thanks a bunch ahhhhhhh, And. =.="

&&&&&&&&&& because of the madness on Friday, i am now Sann`s, Raq`s and Jac`s supergirl now. Yeah, i`m no longer their lighter.
I remember, I remember the last paper we had in Sem 1. Sann wanted to smoke but she had no lighter.
Sann: Does anyone have a lighter?
Me: why don`t you just use me? i AM a lighter coz I light up your life.

& then everyone went insane.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. that`s very...me, I know. we barely knew each other back then. See, that`s how I make friends (:

omgggggggggggggg. today is madness okaye. My day isn`t gonna end till like 1am or something. induction talk, wedding, airport. &&&&& school rocks my kinky underwear because all projects for CA1 are submitted!!!! wheeeeeeeee.

&&&&&&&&&&&& WELCOME HOME, NURUL FARADELLA!!!! (in about another 10 hours)
You`ve been away for far too long & I`d better see all the good stuff you`ve bought for me. No, that doesn`t include the kambing you were SUPPOSED to buy. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

omg it`s already 11am! i`d better get going. everyone tc & have a happy SunYay(sunday)!
:D

i`m taking a break, really

zomg zomg zomg. what`s wrong with technology & me today? first up, my wireless modem has gone bonkers which means I can`t do my work. Which ALSO means that I`m so dead, mati mati tentu mati, because I`m supposed to hand in my POM assignment tomorrow & I need online research. Sooooo after searching for a suitable place WITH power sockets (my laptop`s battery is INSANE, fully charged lasts me 28 mins WTH), I`m finally able to resume my work albeit a haaaard chair which is hurting my ass.

So now I can do my work peacefully. But no. Because there`s no reception on my mobile aka handphone aka telephone bimbit aka cell phone. 'Emerg. Calls Only' ... Goddddddd. STARHUBBBBB. this place (@ the CC near my house) is f.annoying. So that means no one can contact me & my mum`s kinda sick so I don`t know what`s happening @ home. GAHHH.

&&&& I am panicking because i`ve yet to think of one more macroenvironmental issue for this assignment & my time is runningggg outtttttt. I`d have to go over to McDonald`s then since it`s opened 24hours. WAHLAUUUUU. & just so you know, there`s no McD in my neighbourhood (yeah kental eh? go figure where I stay ah). & all my friends stay like 2-3 train stations away from me ( i live in a cave, you dunno ah? but really, none of my friends live near me). But anyway... I believe in the power of 'last minute work'. Imogen Heap`s songs @ full blast now. Gets me going... My brain is oh so awake.

L-L-L-Laters.